29th March 2015 – 4th April 2015 [Fears]

 

Mon: The day started with Sunday hangover. The office was routine. After dinner, I sat with Dhwani and Chutki. We discussed this and that. Dhwani is very good communicator, and she has deep interest in human nature and psychology. Today we focused on various kinds of fears. I have heard about different kind of fears. In English language all kind of fears have peculiar sounding names. But I have limited knowledge and first hand experience of fear. I am fearless! Ha, Ha, Ha.

What about family members?

Muskan will win award in this category, hands down. She is afraid of using lift; she must turn of Gas cylinder every night. She claims this as childhood habit, but I put this under fear. Then she has mortal fear of needles. She goes to extremes and stays away from needle. She does not eat so many items, this must be result of some kind of fear only.

Moni has fear of dark, Dad had fear of missing train, Bindiya has fear of putting on weight. Kashyap had fear of dogs, Akshay whereas has fear of losing Muskan! Gulu shrinks from travelling, which is manifestation of fear of traveling. Rinky has aversion for cameras. Avi hates heights. Pinky cannot sleep, if she is all alone! I am not counting fears of creepy creatures like cockroach, snakes, bugs etc, as many people fall in this category.

There are many deep fears which affect the life in big way. Some are such that they control us and our behavior. It is imperative to overcome those fear to live life. Then there are deep rooted fears with huge implications, effecting oneself and people around you. I think our life process is nothing else then over coming fears, remember the tag line of mountain dew drink.

“Daar Ke aghe Jeet Hai”    

Dhwani feels that she is brave simply because her father allowed her or pushed her for school trips without family when she was very young at the age of 14 years in school trips. Then she also travelled to USA at young age, all alone! I feel some substance in it. One of the advantages we had in our childhood was intensive traveling. Lali – Myself - Sanjay are fearless because of those travels. Also a secure, emotional bounding with family helps a lot.

Sat: I once again thank Rinky. The trend of spending weekend together, started by her continues. We had dinner at B7, with Avi family present. Lali and family are in Mumbai, at Peddar road, as Manju’s parents are visiting India. After dinner, we sat down for ‘Gup Shup’. As no good movie was available for viewing, again at request of Rinky we started playing ‘Dum-Sharaz’ with variation. This weekend Akshay was also present, making this as complete family gathering. Few hours just slipped away, and soon it was 11 O'clock. Sleeping time.

Before putting my head on pillow, this simple wise line from ‘Bharachi’ directed by Hrishikesh Mukerjee rang in my head.

‘हम बड़ी खुशी के pechah Bhagte hain,

छोटी सी खुशी भूल.

जीवन उन छोटे खुशी में है’     

 
The Choti word reminds me of 'Chutki' and our 'bhachpan'. So one more gem from late 50's.

by P G Dodeja